Maybe; a poem about Hogmanay

Our screens are filled with New Years Eve showreels yet every mind is a world we don't always get to see. I wrote a poem about tonight (in Scotland we call New Years Eve Hogmanay) to help me make sense of how I'm feeling. I hope you like it. It's called Maybe.

maybe I should feel different

the night we say goodbye to the year

the day the new decade arrives

maybe I’ll celebrate

ignore the weight of reflecting

the truths I always tell

maybe I’ll sleep

motherhood has taken my energy

replaced it with a love that you’re right to be scared of

maybe I’ll dance

shine lights on the giant joys that fill my days

maybe I’ll write

remember the moments

accept the lessons

maybe I’ll remind you

you are ok

even though you think you should feel different too

maybe I’ll do all of these things

all at once

sleepier, stronger and wiser than I’ve ever been before